ROFL DON’T BE SAD I MOTHERFUCKING LOVE YOU <3
every day after school we would just hangout in my basement and watch T.V., or take a nap in my bed and then watch good movies you hadn’t seen all the time, we would hangout every night from right after school to 9 or 10. It was so amazing.
I’m going to spend the rest of my life missing those days.
If there’s a heaven and by some backassward fucked up miracle I end up there, it will be me and you in my room ever day after school for eternity.
Remember our first kiss? I was pretty scared and I think I was afraid one of us would try to use tongue and end up licking the other’s lips. Awkward penguin. I remember I didn’t know if you were gunna give me some sort of queue or if I was supposed to ask you when it was okay to kiss you. I was talking to somebody I remember and when I looked at you after I said it you just pecked me on the mouth and basically ate some pork chop sandwiches. Remember the summer I saw you maybe two times? I still thought about you every day. Remember when we would hangout at the skatepark ALL THE TIME? I remember when I’d go out to the skate park sometimes at night and just sit on my board and text you. I’d hope like hell that somehow your mom would let you come see me if only for 10 minutes. Remember when we’d walk to McDonalds all the time? Remember every Derby Days we spent together. Remember when we would go to Swaney sometimes? I guess a lot actually, we’d walk down the ditch to the playground. We walked everywhere didn’t we? There are so few places I can think of where we didn’t walk together. Remember when I convinced my parents to let us cuddle downstairs and watch T.V. all the time? Remember all the hours we sent watching Spongebob and sleeping and memorizing each other? Do you remember any of the movies I showed you? Yea me neither. ;). Do you remember the first time you smoked? Don’t even get me started about all the time we spent at Riley Park. Remember all the crappy movies we went to together just because we had money and nothing to do and we were so fucking bored that going to see any movie was better than sitting at my house? Remember all the good ones? Do you remember when we told our parents we were going to have sex (after we had already been having sex)? Remember what we used to do after the movies? ;D. Do you remember when you got on birth control? I seriously tried the hardest I could to make up for every even slightly bad thing that happened, even though I had no control over any of it. I tried with every inch of my soul to keep you happy for months. Remember how amazing it was when you got off of everything and you started acting like you again? Remember all the times we went camping? Every gorgeous (and not so gorgeous) night we spent huddling next to a campfire talking about everything and smoking cigarettes until our throats hurt. That summer we spent hanging out with friends and going camping almost every other weekend. Every kiss. Every hug. Every tickle. Every stare. Every word. Every text. Every dream. Every touch. Every smell. Every sound. Every smile. Every second.
Nothing anyone could ever do would make me not want make more memories like these.